Getting partially agoraphobic

I am driven to such thought 'cos I am convinced at this time of my life, the cosmic people have brewed up a stinky conspiracy to drain all the energy out of me as well as the moolah out of my wallet.... the moment i step foot into open air..open El Nino air. Broke and bankrupt. Make those two words an understatement.

In the spirit of being broke, I shall make life easier for me (and the many people dear to me) by making a birthday wishlist as early as now.. Nyahahahahha. (So everyone may have ample time to prepare) Hihi.

Wishlist 2010

*Books, books and books!! (Haha) I've read 6 and 1/2 books (so proud) in two months.. And none of those are nursing books (not so proud of that) I've revived my love for books and I am constantly happy and begging to devour more!!

I wish to have ASAP the ff books..
1. Last book of the Hunger Games Trilogy
2 Third installment of Michael Scott's Series: The Secrets of the Immortal Nicholas Flamel (IN PAPERBACK EDITION)
3. Lord of the Rings Trilogy (I only have the book: The Hobbit which I stole (ehem) borrowed from a friend) HIHI!!
4.I'd like to read Julie and Julia.. (got soooo inspired from the movie)
5. The Mysterious Benedict Society
6. Philippa Greggory books

I realized I have so many books that I want that I think this book section deserves a separate entry Nyahahahahaha. I dont want to sound choosy anymore.. All books are welcome, even those subjectively presumed good. I just want to read.. c=
*Bitchin speakers..the portable ones for my laptop..

*A nice pair of duty shoes.. (I never thought of how badly I want this til I dreamt about wanting it so much..Haha.. Been wanting a pair ever since I procured a minor toe (make that all 10 of them) injury from wearing my Advans white shoes for 12 hours straight for 3 consecutive days..)

*A nice, peaceful day.. one spent with much productivity and bliss..(closes eyes, smiles, and dreams idiotically.. Haha)
*A Job- as a nurse with pay..good pay!!
*To pass the NCLEX..c=
*Vintage Polaroid..Although they've made digital ones now.. I'd still prefer the old but equally engaging one..I would search the planet for it!!

*To jump high and never land, to look up at the sun and smile, to fly and sit on the crescent moon, To be adrift in my shiny red balloon!!!

(Wrote this one scorching el nino afternoon.. rocking this entry with a rhyme)

My 100 christmases

I spent last christmas knowing that id never have 100 christmases again.. i have devised (only in my cinnamonstrange head) a measure of happiness for my favorite holiday.. to have 2 christmases is bliss already..but to have a 100 is the greatest marvel.

i am still a child trying to grasp the perfect holiday.. trying to hold on tightly to a wonderful christmas memory that's slowly slipping from my grasp.. Christmas has become nostalgic for me ever since 2 years ago, I spent christmas without my dad('cause he had to leave for work), and we also had to endure the pain of never having another christmas with my lola(our Auntie Nena).

I've accustomed to losing childish thoughts and memories but I've never lost my faith in christmas trees, white snow(yes i've experienced snow and by experience i mean tasted and 'snow angeled' in it nyahaa), gifts and gift wrappers, and just having to sit on the same living room with your loved ones while christmas hung in the air.. (there is really such a thing..if you'll only keep still and really concentrate hard nyahaa)

I know i'll never have my 100 christmases back..
But last Christmas still came close to being a hundred because..
I am comforted by the thought that my lola is experiencing Christmas firsthand with Jesus in heaven.. and that my daddy will soon come home.. c:
And that I still got to spend the Holidays with my loved ones..c=

It's always never too late to say... Happy Christmas!! (Nyahahahahha)