Zak is sick

Yet again i'm sitting here at the Shell lounge. Php15500 worth of recent repairs after, zak is sick again. I'm beginning to think zak is betraying me.. after our 7-year long relationship.. why now? Now that im at my most poorita state ever.. It amuses me how on the two rare occasions that i stood by the car and mulled over on what the mechanic is doing, two men asked about the repairs. Men.. why the compulsion to be comforted by other people's car problems? Haha. I started feeling like i should feign some enthusiasm over theirs.. i almost retorted.. "So kuya, ano nangyare sa gulong mo? Sakin kasi bushing, suspension arm, line support, shock absorber, alignment, stab link, engine support, gasgas sa likod, aircon filter, sama na rin natin yung tuklaptuklap kong tint, at kinakalawang na tambutso. No biggie. So,butas ba kamo gulong mo?" F this. Zak, you are beginning to be a pain. Must extinguish all traces of repairs before Dad comes home. I have 5 hours left.

This Too Shall Pass

So many music to download, so little storage space. (And so many incriminating evidence here enough to get me detained for internet theft harhar)

Because a tedious and dreary research endeavor is sucking the life out of me..It's high time for some tunes! Must psych myself up for research.

You know you can't keep letting it get you down. And you can't keep dragging that dead weight around.

Happy Birthmonth to my number one reader! (Erratum:My only reader)

This is actually my 4-year old cousin's fatrwork. So, the juvenile doodle is deemed acceptable. (= Happy birthmonth kiemy! Because 4 years ago i did something like this, and haven't done it since.. You deserve it..(= (Cue tears..from you) Nyahahaha.. Forget cess' Draw Something doodle.. I just made this old school style! Paint! Haha I mean, Xam did this on her laptop and sent it to me via email. Kids these days.... 

Happy Birthday Kiemy! (= 

May 10, 2012 

The Perils of being in 3D

I don't know what the universe was trying to tell me, but as I was trying to log on to this blog, I got redirected to my old blog! Oh, the jejemon-esque horror. For history's sake, my future biographer's sake, and my future kids' sake, I shall share: http://themilkyy0nder.blogspot.com/ 

I totally forgot about it. And I actually had readers!! And they took time to comment! Why did I write that way??? Why did I spell words that way?? I was on the brink of being jologs. If not already one. 

But it was still cool seeing my old sentiments. And hey, I named that blog after my column in our HS paper- The Milky Yonder. Inspired by Boyd's White Fluffy Clouds. Good job to old jologs me. Hahaha! On my epitaph, people will add "Blogger since 2004". Yikes. I'm old. 

Must share recent writing shenanigan: 

Oakley fashion event 

April 27, 2012

NBC Tent, BGC 

Assignment for HIP and PDI (Thanks to my good friend, Trish E/ Sputnik) 

Had the privilege of being a VIP. I must have been selected because of my striking good looks.(Vomit!) Must have been due to my charisma. Or because I wore Oakley shades. Counterfeit Oakley shades. Fakeleys, as they call it. Hahahhaha. (Didn't actually wear one, just to be clear) 

VIP meant getting a special spot near the stage, where you get the privilege to be the first ones to get torched in case something goes wrong with the pyro blast. Was actually thrilled rather than mortified! I could almost see the headlines "Oakley event goes awry- Press gets VIP-ried!" 

I enjoyed, nevertheless! Food from Grappa's was great! They had me when they served wine! Loved the Surf and Turf with the red wine!! And the Black Truffle Pizza!! (Rethinking blog's purpose- should i turn this into a food blog?Haha) 

Felt like a foodie, for a night! 

Le stage 

Yes, those are Red Horse bottles. 

Ms. Angie (Account Executive of Hinge Inquirer) and moi

The Lamborghini that I stalked.

Must now force brain to write something. It'll be a long night. 

Here Comes the Bun

Bun really means Bum. Haha Dont want to ruin my beautiful PUN. (Sloooowly losing it) I swear, I used to master comedy. Harhar.

On this brief but glorious vacay... (which really means waiting for employment) I shall summon all my strength to be productive.

First off, "You're area" ?? Really now. Haha Kidding! I'm thankful for this brief (yes, i'm firmly holding on to the belief I'll get employed before my birthday--- this year.) sabbathical from Nursing.

I'm actually excited! To get back on the things i lost.. meaning the movies, music, books and sleep.

Must watch:

Breakfast at Tiffany's

Daria (All seasons!)

Persepolis

J.Edgar

50/50

The Drummond Will

Howl

Flight of the Conchords (series)

Freaks and Geeks (series)

Walking Dead (series)

Community (series)

Game of Thrones season 2!!

The Rum Diary

Hugo

Dark Shadows

Phantom of the Opera

Must Read:

Clash of Kings

Girl, Interrupted

Essex County

Persepolis

Emily the Strange: Piece of Mind (When the Paperback edition comes out!!)

Must listen to:

The Wild Trapeze - Brandon Boyd's "wild" solo album

Phoenix's albums before Wolfgang Amadeus

Mix cds i recently got!!

Diamond Rings - Special Affection

Florence and the Machine - Ceremonials

Vampire Weekend - Contra

I cannot wait to get started! I shall clean out the laptop's memory to accommodate my massive and totally illegal act of piracy. Harhar. (Self-incriminating evidence!!)

Other things i must do: (Miscellaneous)

Drag my busy behind to get my brother's report card (also, summon all courage to face old unpleasant acquaintances and prevent myself from fainting)

Find a way to achieve the title of Evil Overlord of the Universe

Bastardize (even more) the bedroom walls

Photograph more. (Use last 2 shots of Holga film and capture greatness--my face. Kidding!!)

Write here more often!

Ignore stressors in life and be the ultimate Zen master.

Do the Zumba dance. (Messing with ya.)

Make a mean DIY ballpen holder.

Try not to sleep all day.

Write my way back to existence, and get paid for it. (Harhar)

Snapshots from my recent adventures:

Here comes a feeling you thought you've forgotten.

Lapszomania!

I'm reviving my blog! Hello world! My new respect for life includes shying away from too much reverence of the dark tones, hence, the bright, bright new layout of my BLOG!! Facebook, tumblr and twitter aren't for me, not really a fan of microblogging. I like blogging BIG! Bwaha so is blogspot a "MACROBLOGGING" tool? Did i just invent a word? If there's a microblogging, there should be a macroblogging term. (This should be patented, let today be known i coined the term macroblogging!!) Bwahaha. The thing is, my heart has always belonged to blogspot.(Tears...) HAHA

What you should expect:

New maaaad computer skills (Expect tricks, effects and tweaks!) - YES I'm
kidding....
Levitating photography which i shall attempt out of sheer envy from this
blog (http://yowayowacamera.com) It's so
cool I want to cry.
No more ranting! No more melodramatic outbursts.
More wish lists! (Just in case someone out there cares) HIHI
Real events, blog- worthy ones. (Honest to blog!) - JUNO!!! But really,
it's a Diablo Cody reference (How cool is her name???)
No more flight of ideas (Refer to previous statement)

I'm a Julie, of Julie and Julia. I'm back to sending things out in the big black void!

Originally wanted to upload a video of me, singing Lisztomania of Phoenix, cause it's a fun fun song.. But, I realized I might bastardize it so...... (HECK I'm gonna do it one of these days!!!) Wait for it!

Lapszomania - (Phenomenon) The intense fan frenzy directed toward Lap (me), characterized by intense levels of hysteria demonstrated by readers.

(Aaaaaand, readers unfollow and immediately clicks little "x" sign on the upper right corner) Hahaha

Getting partially agoraphobic

I am driven to such thought 'cos I am convinced at this time of my life, the cosmic people have brewed up a stinky conspiracy to drain all the energy out of me as well as the moolah out of my wallet.... the moment i step foot into open air..open El Nino air. Broke and bankrupt. Make those two words an understatement.

In the spirit of being broke, I shall make life easier for me (and the many people dear to me) by making a birthday wishlist as early as now.. Nyahahahahha. (So everyone may have ample time to prepare) Hihi.

Wishlist 2010

*Books, books and books!! (Haha) I've read 6 and 1/2 books (so proud) in two months.. And none of those are nursing books (not so proud of that) I've revived my love for books and I am constantly happy and begging to devour more!!

I wish to have ASAP the ff books..
1. Last book of the Hunger Games Trilogy
2 Third installment of Michael Scott's Series: The Secrets of the Immortal Nicholas Flamel (IN PAPERBACK EDITION)
3. Lord of the Rings Trilogy (I only have the book: The Hobbit which I stole (ehem) borrowed from a friend) HIHI!!
4.I'd like to read Julie and Julia.. (got soooo inspired from the movie)
5. The Mysterious Benedict Society
6. Philippa Greggory books

I realized I have so many books that I want that I think this book section deserves a separate entry Nyahahahahaha. I dont want to sound choosy anymore.. All books are welcome, even those subjectively presumed good. I just want to read.. c=
*Bitchin speakers..the portable ones for my laptop..

*A nice pair of duty shoes.. (I never thought of how badly I want this til I dreamt about wanting it so much..Haha.. Been wanting a pair ever since I procured a minor toe (make that all 10 of them) injury from wearing my Advans white shoes for 12 hours straight for 3 consecutive days..)

*A nice, peaceful day.. one spent with much productivity and bliss..(closes eyes, smiles, and dreams idiotically.. Haha)
*A Job- as a nurse with pay..good pay!!
*To pass the NCLEX..c=
*Vintage Polaroid..Although they've made digital ones now.. I'd still prefer the old but equally engaging one..I would search the planet for it!!

*To jump high and never land, to look up at the sun and smile, to fly and sit on the crescent moon, To be adrift in my shiny red balloon!!!

(Wrote this one scorching el nino afternoon.. rocking this entry with a rhyme)

My 100 christmases

I spent last christmas knowing that id never have 100 christmases again.. i have devised (only in my cinnamonstrange head) a measure of happiness for my favorite holiday.. to have 2 christmases is bliss already..but to have a 100 is the greatest marvel.

i am still a child trying to grasp the perfect holiday.. trying to hold on tightly to a wonderful christmas memory that's slowly slipping from my grasp.. Christmas has become nostalgic for me ever since 2 years ago, I spent christmas without my dad('cause he had to leave for work), and we also had to endure the pain of never having another christmas with my lola(our Auntie Nena).

I've accustomed to losing childish thoughts and memories but I've never lost my faith in christmas trees, white snow(yes i've experienced snow and by experience i mean tasted and 'snow angeled' in it nyahaa), gifts and gift wrappers, and just having to sit on the same living room with your loved ones while christmas hung in the air.. (there is really such a thing..if you'll only keep still and really concentrate hard nyahaa)

I know i'll never have my 100 christmases back..
But last Christmas still came close to being a hundred because..
I am comforted by the thought that my lola is experiencing Christmas firsthand with Jesus in heaven.. and that my daddy will soon come home.. c:
And that I still got to spend the Holidays with my loved ones..c=

It's always never too late to say... Happy Christmas!! (Nyahahahahha)

I had a Starbucks cup last night.. :c In no less than 24 hours, I ate my words and morphed into a hypocrite. Nyahahahhaha. That will be my last!! c:

starbucked

I cant believe I'm saying this but...... I miss school.. Bwahahahahhahaha. Not nursing or SPUM! Just schooling in general.. nyahaaa (I speak like I have not been under the same scorn and scrutiny of the SPC sisters for over a decade)

***
I love the smell of coffee at Starbucks but I now refuse to be driven mad by their grande's and venti's of php150 something. It is such a waste. I love their Toffee Nut Frappe but I could no longer rely on their expensive caffeine. There is some mentality that they impose that you have to have a Starbucks coffee on your hand while studying, watching a movie, having a meeting, or just basically while drowning yourself in misery (well it's a much acceptable alternative to alcohol). No i dont repulse Starbucks. It's the idea of having overpriced caffeine in my system that i hate. And yes, i occasionally take a sip or two but I'll strive harder next time not to be a trator of my words. I just cant resist the smell........ (gets sucked into a whirl of aromatic grounded coffee beans.... snaps out of reverie all of a sudden realizing this is not a daydream but typed words dictated by my fully conscious state- vigilant and upbeat.) All im saying is, mmmmm.. Im broke and I cant afford good smelling coffee anymore. Nyahaa. It'll be my resolution to resist (remember: resist is the key term) Starbucks. I shall hate it for putting me into bankrupcy. (oa! To hell. I can say whatever I want, this is my blog anyway.)c:

My lola passed away last May 12, 2009. Before tragedy befell on us on May 7, 2009 , she was stronger than any of us in our home.. i'm certain she can even beat my 135-lb brother in a marathon.. I'll never regret the 20 wonderful years I spent with her.. I'll never forget the way she laughs or how she passionately shares episodes from teleseryes or game shows that i missed.. ( It would bring me unfathomable pain to write this in past tense so just let this be) When i get home late, she'd wait for me while playing gameboy as she sits in her rocking chair.. When i leave in the morning, she'd carry my books or bags.. and accompany me to the car.. It's the simple things that make her the most pleasant and selfless person I know.. not just to me but to everyone else she knows.. Her prayers mostly consisted of wishes for all others' sake and not her own.. She spent most of her life taking care of everyone without ever asking anything in return.. I regret not showing how much grateful I am for her.. I imagined spending more time with her after I graduate and take the boards..now I'll never have the chance to do that.. Losing her is the most painful thing I've felt.. it's like i lost a parent and a friend.. But i know i'll get by everyday knowing that God is taking care of her now..

We love you so much and we miss you.. Happy 80th Birthday Auntie!

5 minutes

over the past months,iv had countless attempts to break the barrier thats been keeping me from entering my own blogger account in the comfort of my own home... there's this certificate error thing that i dont even understand.. sadly, my computer skills or lackthereof would no longer provide me the liberty of pouring my heart out (blah blah and something else thats very cliche) every aching moment i want to rant and just curse somebody, someone and my school. (joke, but not really)

the worst has happened.. iv dragged myself to an internet cafe.. friendster @ i-manila cafe is the most pathetic thing.. it's equally appalling with having to eat @ our school's canteen while cats freely lurk around trying to scare the shit out of me,sette and others who are deeply annoyed and disgusted by the thought of feline tails brushing on our legs. (i lost grip of the real issue here im sorry) what im saying is, it's bad enough that friendster is such a..... (ugh i canteven describe it) ................ think about it, arethose 400 something friends you approved really your friends? HAHA if you just answered yes, then maybe im just full of crap.

im sitting @ number 3 computer with a broken spacebar which i have to exert effort to hit while it makes an annoying sound like that of a typewriter. the person to my right is smiling freakishly at the web cam while a topless man on the right upper window is doing God knows what. to my left, a middle-aged woman laughs loudly and verbalizes to the person next to her that she cant stop laughing... i look over to her screen only to find out shes watching titanic in YouTube. i watched titanic when i was a kid, i know that's too long ago, but i remember vividly theres nothing overly comical about it.

7:45pm COunter girl: "Miss, 5minutes na lang"

Gotta gow!

the colossal sunshine of stuff and things..

i have found my bigggest frustration in nursing.... breaking ampules. Never have I decently broken an ampule without injuring my thumb or index finger. If it's not a tuklap... a piece of broken glass gets stuck on my finger... it's getting really annoying.. especially.. when i put all my efforts and my incredible hulk strength into breaking one.. ...and i get nothing.. not even the slightest crack or budge an army of ants could probably muster. oh well.

tough week...

yesterday, i dropped a huge proportion of my ice cream on the floor of a mall.. i nonchalantly pretended that nothing happened.. but in truth i was bursting with guilt and almost on the verge of tears. for one, someone might slip and i pity the person who would have to clean it up.. so what's a 20- year old ice cream-eating adult got to do? BE THE IMBISILE THAT I PERFECTLY AM. haha.. i did nothing.. about 5 meters away i turned to look behind me and i found people checking up on their shoes.. like they stepped on poop. i knew i shouldnt have trusted myself with icecream on a cone.. note to self: baby steps laps.. stick with the cup.

the 'on the verge of tears' over an ice cream incident is just one among many silly stuff that i seriously contemplate on.. in the movie 'sweet home alabama'..i cried when reese witherspoon visited her dog's grave ( i cried both times i watched it). i cried over the film 'inconvenient truth'.. ugh. there are others. but it would be even more pathetic to remember it all.

the other day, i was watching discovery channel.. i think it was the feature..'the girl who lives in the dark' it's nothing creepy like the title suggests.. but it's the hauntingly sad but strangely beautiful story of Wan Lao..... guess what... i cried. but it's different this time, i have not cried like that since August 11, 2008.

tough week.

November is smoking cessation month

For 3 days now, Iv been constantly popping my head in my book shelf just to check if I really have the book.. and my heart skips a beat everytime. (oa haha) I shall forever be grateful to Kiemy. Had she not imposed the 'no-yellowing for a year' (di mu pa diretsuhen laps) rule i wouldnt have had the book.. and more importantly, effective airway clearance and better lungs. i'l elaborate... Since this serendipitously fits to what we're promoting for this month.

The Brandon Boyd book is my reward for stopping my ridiculous smoking phase. I'm almost 11 months clean. So il pay it forward, (since repaying kiem would be implausible) I'l help someone else quit. I think my dad would be the best designated subject. I'll be flooding his mail tom.

I wont be telling anybody what to do. I leave you with a choice.

The 'living in the moment' part might have been right but still, i beg to disagree, every stick puffed takes away 5 minutes of your life.

ERGO..

iv never felt this disturbingly elated and sad at the same time..

why the ef*ing melodrama? (again?)

i think

it must be...

l.. l.. lo..

love.. (fireworks)

JOKE (vomit)

HAHA.

P.S. I realized.. I was the first one to sit on the comp chair since the monster "accidentally" peed on it. Who accidentally pees on a comp chair? Mind you, it's clean now.. after 2 days of quarantine.

Ms. Kimraiza Escandar Jainal, please stop calling me masunget!!You know how much the net bores me.. and every waking day that I need to use the net is a drag.. a hell of a drag.. PLUS, the unlikely incident that my brother conspired just made the use of the computer less inviting.. so forgive me and the 200cc of urine that shall forever be embedded on the deep recesses of our comp chair. ERGO, (hahahaha) i'l see you SOOOOOON. im excited! (believe me)

I must be going through some strange (cinnamonstrange) sheeeeeeeetness.

My notebook says...

Every year I spend a /bleepin/ amount of money for a few high quality leaf pages hastily procured from once oxygen-giving wonders of nature.. (and i call myself a tree hugger?)

But, iv made my peace.. we planted these.. ...fine we didnt.but we stole some roots!

Anywoo.. so when people pester me about how ridiculous i get for one notebook.. i say, (and i use this i say appropriately and NOT frequently) to hell with them im happy with my miquelrius notebooks.. someday itl be like.. da vinci's notebooks..or the diary of anne frank..or memoirs of a geisha.. only it'l be like lap's doodles,scribbles and squrts. classy. very classy.

October 14, 2008

Happy Birthday Daddy!

Sept. 16, 2008 - Pauikan's birthday

1st Asia Pacific Conference on Nursing Research
Manila Hotel

..yung blurred girl. she ran kase namatay yung ilaw. hahaha

Should I rant? Nevermind. In a nutshell, the experience was...... (lumiere de malades i give u the freedom to supply your bitchin adjective here)

Aug. 8, 2008 - Beijing Olympics
Happy Birthday Gan and Katbisyo aka rocky.
(walang picture kase hindi aku umatend)

Aug 4 Happy Birthday Danica Zabala

The one person who's willing to be my human doodle without being extorted.


July 26 Lifehouse with kiemy

By the end of the concert...
Kiem: I cant believe they didnt even play 'Breathing'!!! i want a refund!!

Lap: Tara. Let's eat @ Taco Bell.

Aylabit.

Lap-jam-kar-en's 2008 birthday (@yellowcab and some reggae bar where we BURNED someone)
July26- jazm
July 28 - karen

giantess,wrenzy,me,karen,kat,dast,sarah,jam

July24

My birthday@ a venetto pizzeria. The same day i saw the owner of our father's coffee and no one believed me..uhm no..my fun fact just wasnt interesting.

Migraine

You know it's time that we grow old and do some shit.

I wasted 3 hours of my life today. Again, those we do not speak of ( the village reference) made me and 9 others perish over hearing their dreary and tedious talks which i only comprehended as... djshweybsbf%##fs##.

And..

On my way home, I didnt realize that a police car chased me for about 5 blocks..I heard this sort of siren (whatever that annoying sound is), followed by a voice through a megaphone..which again was quite incomprehensible to me.. Obviously as always, i was oblivious. So i stopped because.. well, it seemed like i had to. I knew what could have been the problem so I just gave up and I no longer attempted to run like a guilty freak. It was just around 5:30 pm then and the color coding ban had not been lifted yet. BUT, when the popo finally approached me, I just showed him my exemption paper. (yaey) And he apologized. Still, he reprimanded me for putting up a chase..WELL, in my defense, it was the most boring police car chase EVER.

This month is dreadfully becoming a verry unmerry birthmonth.

schoooool

Fellow citizens of the Philippines, the drought is over. *The world is a drought when out of love-Incubus*. Do not expect the figurative connotation, there's no such thing. I guess there's love in the humid, muggy, filthy and polluted air again. The adjectives are too much, what can i say, I even get what I call 'Tater's slash foot and hand allergy' everytime I step outside(and when I eat popcorn, hence the title), which i know is RIDICULOUS. I can sense your eyes are rolling. Mine are too.

After a month (almost a month) of spending my precious hours directly in front of the AC bravely disregarding the possibility of having Bell's palsy, the rain finally saved every dehydrated cell of my body. It's no hail, but I guess it quite helped. WHY ON EARTH do we have long sleeves for our uniform? and heeled shoes?? (the latter could be another whole argument worthy of a different bantering for a different post) Anywoooo, it's not just the uniform. Today, they (who??they.) made us wait for 5 hours in school for a t-shirt we didnt even get. It is sometimes very dreadful to be in school. Some days it's just dreadful. Most days it's excruciating. Sense my misery people. I do not like going against my principle of living my life to the 'cinnamonest' yet, I feel so damn damned.

And every lunch time, because i dearly love sparing others the chance to experience a fine lunch in our school (no offense to our ate's, it's just that i am not a fan of our canteen being swamped by cats), my superfriends and I take time to stroll around Robinson's Place for a decent and low-budgeted lunch. Rob is full of angry hungry Pauliians at around 12:00nn to 1:00pm. Since school started this week, I already saw two friends from high school- sarah and kris, which is one thing i like about Rob, you often get to see old acquaintances. It's nice because I have HS-homesickness. I laaab laaab my HS friends. *sniff* Vomit afterwards...KIDDING.

Promise I'll write something sensible next time.

Belated Happy 1st birthday Red!-June 7

To my June04 Gremlins:

patrick,monsterr,

and

xam

Happy Birthday!Wabyooooo.

*Monsterr didnt come home with us last night. He wanted to stay in Antipolo for the weekend. I actually miss him. (vomitus all over the place)

Goobuy summer

Behold, creatures of the earth and its neighboring planets, my Fungus amongus incubus cd arrived todaay.-->

Yes, it's fo real fo real fo shizzle. Neither cropped nor copy-paste. moohahaha.

"i hope it's the right CD, had to beat up an old rocker to get it :D haha, just kidding." - kuya ashley

Thanks kuya ash i luuuuv itttttt.

*
Today is officially my first day of bakasyon. Goobuy summer duty. Yellow first semester duty.
*
I was pestering mothergoose the other day about how I had Primary complex, while we were about to divulge on a heated argument who is rightfully to blame, she verbalized (with much conviction) "..halos lahat naman ng bata nagkakaron ng primary B-COMPLEX."

What?
Primary B-complex.
Nice ma.

i will miss having the cold sausage muffin courtesy of Mcdonald's for my 30-minute duty break courtesy of East Avenue medical center